Well its been three years since my hassan. Left me its been so hard so painful and to be honest its no better I can hide my hurt and pain now put on a smile because I discovered the hard way that people move on forget feel embarassed angry annoyed and fed up with me feeling sorry for myself so I would like to apologize all those who've had to be lumbered with me grieving for my child but I can't apologize for the way my heart is broken my eyes seeking my son all the time my aching arms longing to hold him occasions reminding me of all I've lost No I don't expect anyone to understand but please remember when a mother loses her child its a physical aswell as emotional pain that never eases just intensifies